Why start a blog?
“I write entirely to find out what I’m thinking, what I’m looking at, what I see and what it means. What I want and what I fear.” – Joan Didion
To tell you the truth, I don’t know what I want this blog to be or do or say. I took the WordPress plunge while in London three months ago. Choosing the name came easily — can you believe it wasn’t taken already? Ha! But choosing a theme made me put the whole thing off.
Why start a blog??
I find myself writing really long rant-posts on Facebook, then deleting them without posting because it’s probably unfair to rant at my captive FB audience, which includes former colleagues, ex-boyfriends, and my grandma. And as I delete a gem of a rant I think, this is where a blog would come in handy. I can “find out what I’m thinking” in the comfort of my own little Internet bungalow, where visitors can stop by at their leisure.
Which brings me to my deepest hesitation about writing a blog. Trolls. I get worked up about other people’s trolls. Imagine the horror of having to deal with my own. Then I watched Brene Brown on Super Soul Sunday and she shared a story about Internet trolls that lead to her finding this quote:
“It is not the critic who counts: not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles or where the doer of deeds could have done better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood, who strives valiantly, who errs and comes up short again and again, because there is no effort without error or shortcoming, but who knows the great enthusiasms, the great devotions, who spends himself for a worthy cause; who, at the best, knows, in the end, the triumph of high achievement, and who, at the worst, if he fails, at least he fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who knew neither victory nor defeat.” – Theodore Roosevelt
Which, for me, boils down to … do it, already. If I have the courage to get in the arena in the first place, I can also call up the courage to write about it in a blog.
Personal blogs are indulgent. But so are 700-thread-count sheets and binge-watching four seasons of Felicity. Sometimes a girl’s gonna indulge.